Sunday, July 26, 2009

im very very sorry to you

yesterday i was watching "transformers" alone at c.c...i really hope she will accompany me watch movie in the cinema...suddenly my colleague sms me that tomorrow means today, Sunday, she ask me come out having breakfast with her...she told me that every time i ask her out she also don't want...so this time she ask me out...this morning we having breakfast in McDonald...haha...very funny lah...this is the 2nd times i having my breakfast in McDonald...after finish having breakfast, she wanna told me somethings...but she looks like not dare say it in front of me...she say she prefer told me with sms...finally she told me also...what she told me i also get it...i know the mean...if she wanna told me somethings that will hurt me...just say it...i will listen...don't scare that i get hurt...she told me that yesterday she nearly cry le...i know she wont accept me even how much i do for her...i just wanna treat her good...for now, i treat her good not means she need to accept me as her "bf"...i just wanna have a nice memories with her before i leave...that's all...Wendy, im very very sorry to you because all the things i have do for you have make you scare make you afraid of me...im seldom say sorry to people and i don't like people say sorry to me when they have hurt me because i hate"sorry"this word...actually that time i sms her n asking her where are she? im still at home...after i sms her that i will be there soon, i quickly go and take my car and drive as fast as i can...all is because i wan see her...but traffic jam...make me late le...when i was arrive, she has go buy bread and eat...i really don't know she go there because of the popular card...i though she go there just meet her friend...i really very stupid ar!!! if i know it early, i wont go back home and i will be there accompany her...can't accompany her having lunch...then i say i wan accompany her having dinner but she told me she will having dinner with "Vincent" and she ask me go back...fine...maybe she know maybe she don't know...never mine...is ok...at that time i feel that what i do really useless...on the way i went home...i don't know why my tears will drop and my mood become very down...before reach home, i u-turn and go saloon cut my hair and wash my hair...after the malay garl "urut" my head, i feel a bit better then before...after that i went home and bath...then go "jusco maluri" shopping...i have buy a new "hush puppies" polo t...that's "best buy" item...just RM69.90...then go home lol...

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

really sick lol...

today early in the morning raining lol...very cold oo...i feel very tired and lazy go work because i get fever and sore throat and some coryza...hehe...finally i also go to work...today i lose one's appetite...just drink a cup of hot ''teh tarik'' at mamak then go in office start working lol...i feel more cold and sleepy and suddenly my manager call me and ask me go inside his room discuss the STS outlet bookfair...after i stay inside his room, i feel more more cold and cant attend to listen what he was talking about...hehe...after finish discuss, then was time for lunch lol...today i just eat mee nia...when we finish having lunch, was time back to work lol...finally i beh tahan lol...i go ''HR'' to take the letter then told my assistant manager that i want go see doctor...after that i go back home take my jacket then go back office continue work...haha...then i eat pill...after that i become blur blur le...die lol...don't know how to drive car back home loh...haiz...but i still drive car go back...haha...after reach home then go bath go eat dinner then eat pill then sleep lol...hehe..today i will sleep early because sick lol...but i still will msn awhile...hehe...dear, good night...muack...

i sick le...

yesterday i feel very cold...i feel that i fever le...but i stil don't wan to care it and continue work...suddenly i feel my throat become pain and more pain...really beh tahan!!then i go gereral store and buy a bottle of 100plus...i can't sleep well whole night...keep wake up and drink water and go toilet...very trouble ar!!

Monday, July 20, 2009

blur blur + bad day

today is a bad day...early in the morning on the way go to work...when i was wear my shoes in car, suddenly my car automatic move and knock other people's car...the garl say my car knock her car harder...but i just feel that just kissing softly nia...my car and her car don't have any injured...she take my hp no and my name...she say after she take her car go for checking...if got any problem then will phone me...what the fxxk...only kissing softly...won't get any injured lah!!!her car and my car also same type...if her car got injured...then my car ma more injured...after that i going to office and work...when the time going to 11am, i receive a call from JBP outlet...she ask me the outlet credit memo...im blur blur to tell her that i have finish done the credit memo...after end the call, i go and double check...i found that i key in wrong outlet...the credit memo is for JBP outlet but i key in to PBJ outlet...i don't know why this few weeks i always do wrong things...maybe im too tired...after working, i go playing badminton with my friends...my happy time is playing bidminton...other time im unhappy...because im alone...i love her so much..i know she won't accept me...but i really hope she will give me a chance...i just wan have a nice memories with her...

Saturday, July 18, 2009

moody

today im moody...im not enough sleep ar! this few days i cant sleep well whole night...and my heart is pain...sometimes pain sometimes not pain...when the time is pain, really very pain till i cant do anything...my friend told me that maybe im got heart attack...but my family members no one is heart attack...im very worry it...im really scare that is heart attack...

Thursday, July 16, 2009

我以为我能放得下

我以为我能放得下,原来我还很在乎!
爱来的时候
是真的
爱走的时候
是真的

被你伤害的人还真实的存在
你却生活中伤害你身边的人
真实的爱情
结束在真实的欺骗

在被真实的欺骗和伤害下
你失去了真实的爱情
有谁会理解你现在真实的伤害?
有谁会理解你当初真实的爱情?

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

她说得没错

我知道你爱我,我知道你对我好, 可感情是不能因为这些而免强的, 谢谢你对我的爱我会记住你的好, 一辈子。。。这句话她说得没错,感情是不能勉强的,是我一厢情愿罢了。。。我并不是她要的那杯茶!

Thursday, July 9, 2009

睡不着

今晚我睡不着,脑海里全是她!想的念的都是她!希望她能成为我的另一伴

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

希望我的希望不会再是个失望


现在我想要的就是能够和她天天在一起,开开心心的。我不想在每个角度每个事情都认真地过,我只会在工作的时候认真。和朋友在一起时又何必要那么认真呢?认真的话,怎能开心?和朋友一起,就是要疯疯癫癫才过瘾的才开心!希望我的希望不会再是个失望,希望你明白我的意思。

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Mood is down

My mood is very down...after work, im going to buy 5 bottle beer go home drink...im feel sadness...because many things happen to me... i love her so much...but she don't love me...anywhere, i won't give up...is that worth to love someone who don't love you?